I got bullied a lot. The only clique that didn’t bully me, was them. They were very ride or die people. They always made me laugh, my first ever crush was on one of them, but I never told him. Then, years after school, I’d get random people from that subculture helping me. A bunch of them talked me out of suicide. I didn’t even know them, but that’s what they did. And now that subculture’s just…gone. I know those people still exist, obviously, but every time I think about it, or watch old videos involving people of that subculture, I feel a wave of warmth followed by emptiness. I never got to thank some of them for making my teenage years my golden years. I felt safe opening up to them emotionally. Otherwise, I was a closed book. My family are very “get on with it” “stop crying or I’ll give you something to cry about” people.
I forgot to put my age, but I’m a woman, and 30.


You shouldn’t seek advisement if you cant disclose the information that defines the problem you are trying to handle. You dont need to tell everyone who “them/they” are but you can’t expect constructive input when you can’t describe who one of the two involved parties are. The best you can expect is advice or input that is given in broad stroke that are specific to no one problem.
This is off my chest. People are here to write their feeling off, not to get constructive input.
OP isn’t asking for advice though 😄 Just here to tell us about their experience. While I’m curious as everyone else is, it could be something banal as Kaulitz twin fanclub.