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It’s crazy to think about the change central europe went through these past summers. We had breathable air, real rain at least twice a week.

We get lucky if it drizzles 5min twice a month, but you only smell the dust that has been lifted from the ground.

Some right deviationist will tell ya its all about gettin those high marks, but fail to critisize whos givin them out 😏

Bild is publishing articles which represent the general cultural undertone other newssites / papers (taz, Zeit, Tagesschau) don’t openly write about. It is the perfect representation for German chauvinism without that liberal, worldly framing with academic decor, which middle class germans want to see themselves as.

Bild is often described as a paper for the dumb and lumpenprole, but it doesn’t differ in content to other currents in the German media landscape.

Overall, the overton window is quite small, smaller than what I think is currently happening in the US.

Depending on who you ask, after the fall of the union, ethnic tensions between the communities grew, showing a kind of class divide between Russians and Germans, which mostly resided in the cities, and were disproportionately part of the local intelligentsia, against Kazakhs, not too few still living a nomadic life.

Part of the racism of Germans and Russians against Kazakhs was linguistically, many top universities teaching purely in Russian. After the displacement of Volga-Germans to north Kazakhstan, some became fully socialized as Russians, not wanting to face the social repercussions for being associated with German / fascist culture.

German was either something that communities held on to dearly, smuggling magazines from the GDR to learn and read from, or became replaced with Russian and Russian Literature, thus the advantage in upper education.

My Grandfather used to tell me, that after the nation states came to be, there were nationalist gangs going around, burning houses and killing family-friends of ours. How much of that is representative of the whole country, I don’t know. The dependence of Kazakh industry to the (mainly) Russian and Ukrainian ones killed many jobs in their region, one of many reasons for looking to migrate.

I know that many parts of my family chose to live in Russia, some chose the BRD. It seemed like a choice between ‘guaranteed’ stability and integration, or familiarity but unprecedented hardship. Many that I know of didn’t even know the language, or last used it with their grandparents, before learning it, planning to migrate.

I like to think of it as depression on the societal level, which has only gotten worse and more widespread amongst the population over the decades. The stagnation of living standards, decline in real life third spaces, and the failure of liberalism to explain away the symptoms of empires decline might cause psychological distress of the likes of Doomerism. Why do I say that?

I think the definition of doomerism as the last standing leg of individual liberalism, that nothing ever gets done, and oneself cannot influence the realities they are confronted with, is really helpful to be expanded from the individual to the masses.

As we, as society, are forced to revise our models of thinking about the world and the place we all take in it, we are essentially stripping us of our old abilities to cope, and questioning every source of stability we have taken for granted. While changing our tools of thought, even the space of our own mind begins to shed of its old identity, being stripped of the now unstable foundation.

I think that for some, the pandemic might have been the push from the habitual, albeit relative psychological safety, to the presumed maliciousness of those that practice the now dying western culture.

As a kid i didn’t understand what some call ‘culture’, and guess I still don’t, but what I’m certain about is that it is dying with this current liberalism. The capitalists repression of new generations participation in society, their hopes of a better future, that is build with them, may play a big part.

Heck, I see a lot of my peers struggling with the ability to talk to each other, how do we then even create new culture then? We don’t party, we don’t meet each other, most of us don’t even know how to make friends, nor how to grow up and become a person that we aspired to be as kids.

I just wait for the climate crisis ramping up again this summer. Real fun.

Tl;dr:

Tbh we cooked. Old cultures dyin, everyones feelin it. Either we all remain blind to the demise capitalism forces upon our present societal structures, or we get rid of those damn contradictions, and may have a cultural revolution (god this time better be good or we dead)

Are you secretly me?

I used to have two such friend groups. One full of NDs like myself, the other became weirdly over years thanks to the manosphere and joe rogan types during lockdown. Both of em started at roughly the same spot, but the ND group started to affiliate themselves more and more with the irony pilled online-fascists, memeing the wehrmacht (they’re not even remotely of german decent, mind you), and aren’t able to be talked to about anything anymore. I’d say its real life brain rot, and even though they used to be nice ppl, I didn’t feel safe keeping contacts at all. (I always asked questions to understand why they repeat after what those irony pilled fascistoids say, but it didn’t bear any fruit)

The ones that became incels used to be chill, but one of them filled the group with incel-cope about not getting a date, and vented non-stop about other personal problems, increasingly blaming women and non-whites for his problems.

The moment I cut contact, it felt like I freed myself, and could finally start to know what respecting my boundaries and values is like. The loneliness I felt for the period after that wasn’t all to nice, but I’d do it all the same.

Being bombarded with transphobic, misanthropic, misogynistic and racist shit all the time is disgusting me on the web, and yet I still let it into my personal spaces.

While I used to hang during their radicalisation (and me starting hormones n social transition), it seems to me, staying just enabled their bigotry.

I used to think that I can, after some time, understand why they act the way they do, but its not worth my mental if they don’t even care to introspect themselves.

And yeah, I even went on vacation with em. It was weird and uncomfortable af tbh.

I wish you the best on your path, and hope you can enjoy the weekend trip non-the-less. ^^

The absence of blatant racism / supremacism really does help ground myself when I’m feeling stressed. I’m white passing, and while everyone but my grandfather learned german as a second language, my german is abhorent being born here. English became my primary language rather effortlessly.

I became somewhat misanthrophic after peers of mine consistently wanted to bond over their racism, not knowing my background. I grew up not knowing much german, using a mix of my both parents languages, making learning german culture undesirable for me.

High german and german culture feels foreign and forced upon me personally, but I didn’t have a single culture and community I could completely call my own, which posed a set of problems I would encounter every other time I was trying to socialize.

I see that many people like me don’t really learn their parents language, nor the local one, but get drawn to english as their primary one (Especially if they’re born after the millenium). Being a third culture kid isn’t easy.

That being said, I am really grateful to have this space to breathe on the web, which isn’t primitively tribalistic, but focused on human values. I want to thank you for bringing this thought up.

Cry and scream about “Ruzzian Assistance” to Iran lol

Seems like the Houthi are already at it. https://xcancel.com/A_M_R_M1/status/2027645558454673769

Most-Moral and Hyperneutral Zionist German Media doing Shitreals bidding, once again.

I can access it from Germany. Maybe its overloaded?

Thanks for putting the meat cw in the title. Makes me happy

I definitely felt like that for the beginning of my learning, but nowadays I just feel confused by every kind of media and discussion around me being painted in lib views, to the point of experiencing paranoia / delusion. Glad that those times are behind me, but now I tend to devolve into blood boiling anger if I’m by myself, but try to remind me to ask others questions about their understanding, instead of devolving into debate culture. lol