It’s effecting my work and mu boss seems ready to fire me and i will lose my apartment. I am angry all the time now and I worry I am alienating friends and family. I am fatigued all day long and want nothing more then just sleep and all I can do is lay in bed and hope I have a good night and sleep for maybe three hours and I don’t know what to do. I can’t even afford therapy.
It’s likely most of your problem. Alcohol helps you get to sleep, but you wake up after a few hours of restless sleep.
You probably need to work on your sleep hygiene. Have you heard of the 10-3-2-1 rule?