Came out in my early thirties, 2 and a half years later I have NEVER been happier at any point in my life. My mental health got worse when I initially started HRT, but that was because it amplified mental health disorders I had previously left untreated due to really bad side effects from antidepressants prescribed to me for ADHD, but after finding an amazing psychologist, I am happy to say that I am the woman that I turned into in a dream when I was very young where I was filled with a joy I didn’t know possible. For my entire life I tried to recreate that dream by imagining myself turning into a women untill I fell asleep. I did that every night until I found alcohol, and then I drank myself to sleep for a decade. Flash forward 10 years, in my sober state of mind I can no longer ignore who I am and my egg shell breaks. Coming out to my wife was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but transitioning quite literally saved my marriage, my partner never looked at me like she does now before I transitioned, I have never felt so much love. I hope you can find your peace OP.