I just joined the modding discord server for Need For Speed Heat Unite Mod since I’m enjoying the game, and the first thing I see in the general-chat is unfiltered racism and people saying that the Middle East should be nuked, and that they “breed like rabbits”. They also ran defense for Israel with the classic “but Hamas tho”.

I can’t with g*mers anymore. I’m used to seeing all sorts of right-wing bullshit online, but this one was too much. I then got to see an admin and a random user running defense for this piece of shit that said they own the server and that not only full on admitted to being racist with all the words, but that also said that I should die in a favela and that I should end myself.

I don’t really have much of an online presence because most days I’m too paralyzed by social anxiety to even comment, let alone post much stuff, and honestly, this only makes me feel worse, I feel like shit after that interaction.

Fuck these racist ass zionists.

  • Maeve@kbin.earth
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    2 months ago

    Wow. I’m really sorry to hear that. This behavior is not okay, and not indicative of healthy people. I hope you have some techniques to help you analyze the situation and deep down know you’re a good person for not thinking that way. Also a healthy meal, hot shower/bath and proper rest, because these things are more healing than we often realize, and good people don’t deserve being unwell because other people want to spread poison.

      • Maeve@kbin.earth
        10·
        2 months ago

        You’re welcome and thank you, too. You all help me too, maybe more than you know. I love us for being brave, strong, integral, loving and resilient people. I feel the support and encouragement we offer each other fends off our worse inclinations in moments of distress and exhaustion.