RadioRat (he/they)

It’s really sinister to bully a group aggressively and then point when their mental health falters to justify the bullying.

Couldn’t be better. Returned to work with no issues after completing a partial hospitalization program.

Figured out I need to connect with the trans community again IRL to cope with the gestures at the news and the United States political discourse.

Fortunately, that’s not so hard to do in the Twin Cities.

Might write like a gonzo article about the Kafkaesque experience of trying to pretend everything is fine while the youth are dying and there’s real question about continued access to lifesaving medical care.

That all probably sounds a bit dark but I am coping and maintaining optimism. I’m not ashamed of not being cis anymore and that’s a big deal for me.

It’s just good to know true joy and exist in my body more often. It was really heavy for so long. I made small talk at a lab appointment prior to and at a haircut following group today.

The hair stylist ended up being a specialist in sensory issues so it was very nice to have that kind of chill, mindful haircut. I nearly fell asleep!

Oh! And I’m doing all this while dog tired from insomnia but I’m in a pretty good mood and getting more sleep every night 😸

Checked into a partial hospitalization program last week because my social anxiety and agoraphobia got too big to manage alone.

The past few days have been perhaps the first I’ve felt joy and love in their full forms 😸