No, this is how my wife describes it, lol.

Hah, I made this username as tribute to the best dog I ever had. We put her down 2 years ago today. Depression was something we had in common. Her sigh was more recognizable than her bark. When she passed we had to get our aging cat a new friend and got her the most skittish little kitten pal. They get along ok, bout the same as with the dog.

Eitherway, it’s just cats from now on. The dog took up too much space in my heart and don’t want to have to make room for another.

Good luck with 3 catgirls, tho. If they are anything like my cat they will leave a mark.

Yeah, never been a big football fan my entire life. After starting a serious career I kinda got swept up into it.

I realized in my early 20s I do actually enjoy spectating when I started following e-sports. I was disaffected for a while when that whole space got taken over by influencers, though.

To me it comes down to story lines. I love a great story, as we all do, and professional competition you get to see them unfold in real time. You get to root for your side as it happens and then connect with the people who were there too.

So, hoping to expand my list of topics for small talk football seemed like an easy win. I dunno, not everyone needs social lubricant but it helps for me to have something to ease my anxiety.

I still am a bit behind on all the mechanics but started playing fantasy and it helps get more fimilar with the players.

People reading this probably think I’m a real doofus because this comes natural to them. For me though, it’s like discovering a whole new genre of music and getting to hear the hits for the first time.

That someday I would be free from the social trappings that invade our personal lives.

Satan took them and put them in rocks to fool you about evolution. Satan playing some serious 56D chess.

Literally anything I want done is a wait list here. Eye exam; schedule a time. Dentist; is it an emergency? We’ll schedule you sometime next month. Phycologist; its a theee month wait list. Primary care; see you in three months. Finding a reliable primary care has been a dead end nightmare.

I’m not shitting on doctors or nurses. Just this whole system is bonkers. For what reason? Healthcare is not a business.

“In capitalism everything’s a buisness.” Well get fucked.

I’m not saying we should be reductive. There is reasons for the way we do things. I am saying though, we’ve gone too far and it’s obscuring the goal of a having a functional society.

People need professionals to help with their health; an extremely complex field. Every person needs this. Its not an optional thing. You want a society, well a society needs people, and people need Healthcare.

“Well I never wanted to be part of a society.” Did you enjoy the luxury that having a society provides? From plumbing to super yatchs, all of this wealth we share was made by people like you and me.

Ha, no, they love isolating power to claim more for themselves.

Sure. Anything is better then this hellscape.

Wish I could support you better. I don’t think it’s the end of the world whether or not you pass. As we’ve seen lately in the media, it actually might make you feel more like a woman having people question the nature of your body.

Or you could rub a cats bellllly?

Good w/ cheese. So I hear.

I keep hoping if I think hard enough I can like unlock the next frontier of human advancement. Then I would sell it to everyone because capitalism makes me greedy.

It’s a silly thought.

Good plan!

I want so much for you to have this! Others do to.

Monkey paw time. Full ride scholarship but it’s to trump university.

Would you settle for being a woman?

nearly impossible to have a logically sound and consistent moral framework.

Moral belief, I agree with. Framework sounds much more maleable. I think it’s doable but you need tolerances. Since a framework would shape your belief and everyone have to fill in the blanks for themselves. Two different people could have wildly different conclusions working with the same moral outline. We have to allow for failings but also recognize the failings and adapt. If there is some give and allowances for people to be wrong it makes it less strenuous and easier to uphold your own personal morality.

Like or not Christianity deals with this. It’s a confusing system, purposefully so church leaders can police it, but jesus offers forgiveness. They are so confident in it that Jesus can offer forgiveness for things that no normal person would be able to. I’m not saying the Christian implementation is the right one but I think it allowed the religion to flourish.

But isn’t that the most honest answer. Some form of mania. The GOP want us to live in a world where only democrats can ignite extremist violent outbursts. All while courting extremists. If the democrats rhetoric makes people violent then surely the GOPs rhetoric will do the same?

I dunno. I’m trying to apply logic to an illogical argument. So much of the time we should just shut these people off and work are hardest to deplatform them rather then just fact checking. It’s a type of pollution, which is fine in small doses, but it’s destroying the public square. That and all the shameless advertisments.

I think this applies to me too. Being properly medicated helps. End of the day though I’m not really sure what would “make me happy.” Personally, I’d like to reduce stressors and spend more time being creative. I usually don’t have the mental capacity to stay focused enough after work.

I do get glimpses of happiness. I’m probably more in touch with my vulnerable side, though. Finding something that will release some water from my eyes always gets backfilled with a feeling of relief and joy. Last time I got high and watched the boy the mole the fox and the horse, I was balling. It felt good. I just hope you don’t take pride in the hardened shell that’s grown around you. You’ll never be motivated to chisel away at it.