That would be brilliant and really funny 🤣
but I don’t think so.

He loved me as not myself and he still loves me as myself…and I think that says something really nice about our relationship :D

Saw a post recently that went like “Sorry to break it to you, but you’ll just look like your moms!” :')

I saw a similar post that went something like “People may not know this, but taking 4-6mg of estradiol daily will make you look like your mother in 3 years”
Honestly, hell yeah :D

Please do, does sound like your dosage is really high

Definitely will, but I should ask my endo for 25mg tablets instead of 50mg ones. I’d like to halve my intake and quartering a 50mg tablet is gonna suck 😭

cage I’ve been forced into as a child

A cage that twists and deforms your body…
Yeah, I know it all too well 😢

up to 5x absorption rate

👀
Waow…I’m sorry to hear about your mood. I hope EEn treats you well, I’ve heard only good things about it

cis folk will never experience this, huh?

No, they won’t 😄

Thank you 🩷

So nice to hear about all these little experiences you have :)

Thank you <3. I’ve been blessed with having them and I enjoy sharing them. Even when they’re slightly dumb sometimes 😆

The smell of my clothes changed so much! When they had this ewy man smell I couldn’t wear anything more than once.

Huh, I can’t remember the smell of my clothes. I know I stank, but not sure about my clothes. Then again, my sense of smell sucked. I had to have my face right next to something to even be able to smell it.
Now I smell everything. People, flowers, food, trees…fuel 😆. It really is magic

Now I even added some washing perfume and it’s just sooo yummy 🌺

The only thing I can smell from my clothes now is the detergent we use, in the washing machine. And that’s even after wearing things many times. It’s strange!
I can still smell myself tho. And damn, do I smell good. Like a girl, duh :3

Thank youuuu 🩷

I do get way more upset with things sometimes, but i actually feel them emotions and i feel like they’ve been processed when they’re done.

It’s because I cared more, and it’s because i’m actually capable of feeling emotions now. It’s so much better than it was before, even in its saddest and most painful moments.

Thank you so much. I don’t think I could have put it any better.

Don’t worry about my day. Many good days will come soon :D
Thanks Domi. Take care 💜

Thank you, sis 🩷. I totally get your concern and I’m glad you’re concerned for me. Thank you Domi 😭

That’s true. The option of mono with injections is absolutely underrated.

Just we’ll have our apartment soon on the 1st of September so we’ll be free to… :3

So happy for you two, omg 💜. Girls, yourselves, so freaking much. So happy to hear that ♥️
If you’re comfortable, you can join me in my hornyposting. Then we’ll have sapphic as well as straight options 😆
And I seem to be the only one doing it…oh well shrug

Take care too, love seeing your journey 💜

Thank you, but I love seeing your and other girls’ journeys! And I’m really glad you have a loving gf, omg I’m gonna cry 😭

Take care of each other 🩷

50mg daily is dangerous. CPA is powerful, you do not need a lot of it

I’m aware. With even a tiny bit of E, cypro becomes an absurdly powerful AA. 10mg, 25mg and 50mg all work the same with E.

CPA can cause prolactinomas and meningiomas

I also know. It’s because it’s an extremely powerful progestin and meningiomas have progesterone receptors. And cypro raises prolactin to dangerous levels. Not in my case tho, for some reason

You really could probably just stop altogether now because your e-levels are so high it will suppress T all on its own

Definitely probably could. With an almost 400pg/ml trough, mono would work. I just don’t want to risk it, no matter how stupid it may see. If my T comes back, even slightly…it will be a huge issue for me.

Get your liver function and prolactin levels checked

My prolactin on 50mg was 690 mUI/L and after a couple of months and switching to a higher injection dose went down to 590mUI/L. That’s before lowering cypro to 25mg daily. I’ll ask about my liver tests.

It’s almost embarrassing how much I love my smell now

Yesss, omg same. I keep smelling my armpits and body after a long, hot day and I can’t get enough. Still can’t believe that what I’m smelling (good smell) is actually me 😆
Honestly, with my sense of smell getting better, I also can’t stop smelling my bf. He comes home, sweaty from work and I smell him all over. I enjoy it way too much 🤣

Like my clothes before I wash them smell amazing

I don’t really notice it on my clothes tbh. On my body yes, but not on my clothing, no matter how long I wear it. Weird

But you can’t be huffing your own dirty clothes smell in front of someone without getting some weird looks lol

Hey, if they were in the same situation, they’d be doing exactly the same 😭
They have no right to judge. Smell away, girl!

Take care of yourself Domi 🩷

Well, I had this effect like : is this really me? When seeing my reflection. Happened 2 times already

Hey, that’s so nice! Happy for you girlie 💜
I’m not that far yet myself, but I’ll get there eventually. I do get shadow euphoria tho 😆

The smell changes are so euphoric tho, aren’t they? When boysmell was my smell, I hated it with a passion, honestly. I stank, I hated it. Could shower and I stank again, shortly after, because I was sweating while blow-drying my hair.
Now tho, I love how I smell. And because my boysmell is gone…I’m so attracted to it, I can smell all the boys in public 🤤

Take care girlie 🩷
Hope injections become “official” in your country one day

Haha, what, I was just gonna thank you for being so elaborate <3

I’m so verbose tho 😭
(thankfully) Not as much as my dad, lol. I’m going to see him today…
(I may be wrong, but I think I take more after my mom than my dad. Her eyes, nose, a bit of her facial features, I think? I have a book, “my first book” where my parents wrote stuff about me when I was a newborn. It’s written there that I’m more similar to my mom, which makes me euphoric 😄. Mom is freaking beautiful, had I been cis, i could have legit been a model. Damn it 😭. Thanks for the amazing genes tho, mom ❤️)

and often depressed on it

Uh huh…maybe cypro has an effect on my mental state. I’ll talk to my endo about lowering further, my T is GONE.

got to 750 pg/ml, if not contaminated

Wow. I’ve heard of people getting crazy levels from gel. Well, if it works for you, I’m happy 🩷

it’s not that bad, my gyne will prescribe it to me at a later point, but not in year 1 of HRT

That’s good 👍
It is bad tho. I saw a box of 45 caps, 100mg each for like 27$. That’s insane! 45 caps, 200mg each cost me less than half a dollar 😭
I wish I could supply other girlies with prog, since I have it for so cheap…but they won’t prescribe me more, unfortunately.
In the future tho, I’m totally gonna open a DIY hormone lab and have the lowest prices on the market (not profit-oriented, I just want people to get the correct hormones they need…). And it’ll include prog, of course! 😆

Well, if I’m being honest, that’s like the main bit that makes me interested in prog, especially if it improves form 🤗

Listen, this is gonna sound made up, I swear…but today I woke up, was groping one of my breasts (just checking) and it felt bigger. Still does. And in the mirror…they just look so lovely, omg 😭. I love them so much. I’ve waited for breasts for a LOOOONG time. Even pre egg-crack, I’ve wanted breasts (very eggy of me, I know 😭)
Also, they’re sore. Not too much, but it’s a constant, dull ache I feel. They haven’t been for a while, so I have a good feeling about this

The growth I see make me real euphoric, too. Also got a bit of fat in the right places there :3

Yes, girl, yes 💜
It’s amazing to see your body changing for the better, isn’t it? Changing to align more with how you feel. I still think this is the biggest gift life has given me.

Thanks so much for talking to me, sorry for typing so much 😭
Take care of yourself ❤️

manuallybreathing

Nooooo 😭
Damn it. Gets me every time

I stopped taking it all together a few years ago, yeh my t levels bumped up a little, but it’s actually pretty neat having higher t levels

It definitely is…I’m below cis female ranges, which isn’t good, but it makes me feel so good mentally tho 😭
Like Byebye T, you will not be missed!

At the levels they’ve prescribed you, I’d be checking on your liver health, a friend of mine ws hospitalised

I’m actually so sorry to hear that about your friend…
I should be way more careful honestly. 25mg CPA daily, I take kratom to cope (BAD habit) and bupropion on top of that…at least injections don’t add liver strain and my boobs quite like them .
I think my endo does liver tests, but the bloodwork results I get show only hormones…however, they called me once to tell me my iron was low, so I don’t think they’re giving me the results of all the test. Damn I hope they’re doing liver tests…

As a side note a doctor i saw once said taking e sublingually without pills designed for it was a waste of time

I don’t think that’s true. At least part of the E should get absorbed under your tongue (many blood vessels there!), but I’m also not a doctor. I freaking HATED sublingual tho 😭. It took so long and I was worried I wasn’t doing it right. Also twice a day…jeez.
So glad for injections. They’re not easy to mess up. On pills I had about 100pg/ml, and my injection levels are in my post.

I still live as my assigned gender, and didnt start hrt til I was in my late 20s, about 7 years ago

First of all, wow. Seven years…that’s quite something. I’m happy for you sibling 💜
But also, I’m so sorry you still have to boymode. I totally understand why some people do it tho. Sending you a big, warm virtual hug 🫂

Take care of yourself. Thanks for your kind words 🩷

with my reflection in the streets

Aha, that’s reflection/window euphoria, but this seems to be a new kind: smell euphoria 😆
It is amazing tho

sleep is garbage even with smaller doses.

It is! And my bf still won’t stop insisting it “helps him sleep” 😭
Bs

i admit, i am a little curious about this story.

It’s not too interesting. I just had a mini-breakdown one day, decided to delete my (7 years old? I think) Reddit account and my posts got deleted with it. I tried making a new account, but all of my posts were getting deleted (new account, how am I supposed to make karma tho???). The cherry on top was when they asked for my ID, so I just left Reddit and went to Lemmy.

I was actually checking the Wayback Machine of my Reddit profile page. It’s really funny, because my description goes like this:
18M he/him -> 19M he/him -> 20MTF 🏳️‍⚧️ she/her
and I just found that hella funny and kinda wholesome 😆, no idea why
I guess I finally stopped lying to myself 🩷

Anyway, fuck Reddit, fuck Spez and long live the Fediverse. The people are much nicer here anyway and I feel a thousand times more welcome than back there 😭

Thank you Brooke 💜💜

it is so fucking awesome to get a whiff of myself and not hate it

Preach sister, preach 🙏

not to mention girl smell from other girls

I noticed that. Once I was at a crosswalk and there was a girl sitting about 10m away from me. The wind was blowing from her direction towards me. And I could smell her, a lot.
It surprised me, because I smelled something and I was like: “Wait a minute…that smells like me when I don’t shower for too long 😆”
And it wasn’t as strong as boysmell, but I was still like girl, shower 😭

I notice how people smell now, all the time. Mainly boys 🤣. It’s such a strong smell and tbh, when it’s not coming from me (finally, thank god), it’s actually really attractive 😆

It was a great day, honestly. I’m still grateful (and a bit surprised 😆) that my bf administered my prog for me. I was definitely in no state to do it myself 🤣

Such a euphoric day and experience 💜

i sometimes post a lot of dumb stuff too

Hey, your posts aren’t dumb at all! Moar memes and leg pics 😆

it surely helps to understand better what’s actually happening in other people’s lifes. is very interesting.

Awww 🥺
Thanks a lot! It helps a bunch to write down my thoughts, feelings and experiences. Even when other people can read them. In fact, even more so 😂

better than netflix

Come on now 🤣

keep posting!

I probably will. Thanks so much for the kindness ♥️

You’re right…I’ll get a proper sharps container. Even though I’m very careful with everything glass, it’s best to be really careful with this kind of stuff.
Also, a proper sharps container can probably hold way more than a little glass jar.

It’ll also take forever to completely fill it but once i do the lid “permanently” closes (not if you break into it but like why??)

Huh, that’s a nice little bit of extra safety. I like that a lot!

Thank you Brooke. I’ll make a trip to the pharmacy 🩷

Also, equally as important but i dont see anyone else that showed theirs, a sharps container!

Yes! Totally forgot.
To be honest, I use a glass jar for used ampules, needled and syringes…I’m just slowly collecting waste and planning to bring it to a pharmacy, to dispose of it safely…

I keep a sharpie in there too to mark the amount of shots ive taken from one vial

Omg, that is a great idea! This could help people using vials a lot! Thanks for the tip, I’ll pass it along ❤️

hopefully will need nothing more than EEn and paraphernalia in the future :3

Rooting for you! Monotherapy is great, I just like the peace of mind I get with cypro.

If I may, how’s prog treating you?

It’s treating me quite well I’d say :3

How long have you been on E when you started with it?

My endo prescribed it to me at 3 months HRT. i may be lying, but I’m pretty sure that starting prog “too early” is a myth. You should see what E does by itself and then try prog, to see which effects it’s responsible for, but I personally don’t believe that prog early can mess up breast development.

Asking because I’m still wondering if I want to add it in… Would need to get some from unofficial sources, though

Oof. I know how expensive DIY prog can get (I checked some sites because I wanted a stash of prog specifically for the oral drunk feeling. It’s freaking expensive 😭)
I’d send you some, since I have it so cheap, but I have a very limited supply due to my prescription…I’m sorry 😢

Oh, just saw your other post, so I guess sex life part is answered :3

Don’t know with certainty if it’s the prog, but my sex life has improved dramatically in the past couple of days. My bf can’t keep up with me and he’s sleeping while I type this 😛

Do you feel other effects from prog?

I think my mood is improving slightly. Just after starting prog (again), I went through some stuff…now it’s getting a lot better. Probably not the prog tho
Also, today I just can’t stop admiring my chest in the mirror 😆. I’ve heard prog can help with that, but I’m not completely convinced it’s because of it. They’re growing so well tho 😭
They’ve been sore the past couple of days…

Sorry for the long answer, but prog is freaking interesting. It may just be my new favorite drug (hormone)

This is super informative. Thanks so much girl 🩷

I’ll have to do some exploring on my own then 😆
Thanks again!