Weird, but not overly bad. Still burnt out from last semester and can’t believe that it’s already been a week in for winter break. Time passing has been a relief and a stressor, with me contemplating how to best use my time when most of it has been used up by me constantly napping… at least so far.

Met up with two friends. One is gonna be my coworker soon, and we really got along! Hung out for about eight hours chatting… He might be in charge of me and the rest of the interns though, so we’ll see how our hangouts go in the future. We plan on hiking before he has to return to work.

Christmas has been interesting. My parents made a croissant filled with Nutella and sausages. Random quips and complaints thrown about. No big fight though, so that’s nice. We almost had no gifts because my mom was worried about money, but decided to shop the day before Christmas Eve since I was going out anyway to meet my friend. I reminded her about my wishlist (the third or fourth reminder) because I didn’t want her to randomly buy me clothes that I would never wear for the umpteenth time.

I’m beginning to think that I need to slowly take over the cooking and baking in this household. And driving. And cleaning. I mean, it’s a household of adults and aging parents. I want things to get better, but I need to create a plan with my siblings — which won’t be happening soon, because everyone is having their own struggles with depression and finances. .-.

I didn’t mean to make this existential. But Christmas is my reminder of the good and bad times with family. I hope to have a Christmas that reminds me of why I used to love this holiday… I’m trying to make the best of this break without letting my worries get to me.

Edit: I forgot to add in the midst of my rambling. Happy holidays, everyone! I hope y’all are doing well and/or are making it through this time of year.