I feel like the world has placed an challenge on my shoulders I cannot and will not overcome, from a young age I’ve been considered unattractive, people treated me as if I wasn’t human, people used to use tissue paper to hand me things, make faces at me and treat me as if I was sick. On top of this I have abused by my father, when I was 14 I realized I was a women and thought hrt would fix me if I just held out long enough to start it, unfortunately after 3 years hrt, a year on injections many elements of myself are horrible, the only difference is I get the same treatment mixed in with transphobia, i feel like the only reasonable conclusion I can come to is death. I’m sorry I feel like the world wanted me to prove you don’t have to be attractive to be trans. Unfortunately that weight has proved way to much, I’m sorry to my friends I know they tried and tried, but I know normal people can only do much. I’m sorry to society, I know my life was supposed be some learning lessons but fuck I’m a human bein

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    15 days ago

    I hope you don’t mind, I creeped on your profile and found prior posts with your photos. You look like a perfectly reasonable woman. I interact with women far less attractive than you regularly and don’t feel disgusted.

    Do you have a therapist? A professional would be a great resource for digging into the reactions you’re seeing.

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      14 days ago

      Thoose selfies are highly subjective, like the way I point my camera, I wouldn’t post something I couldn’t bare to look at, I just hate looking at myself

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        14 days ago

        I think you look gorgeous. If I had to describe you in one word from the pictures you’ve posted it would be “important”, like Lieutenant Uhura or Hermione Granger.