It really seems honesty and kindness get you nowhere.
I’ve spent hundreds of hours volunteering. I donated money to good causes when I had it. I spoke up for others.
But I have nothing for it. No one will wish me happy birthday this year. No one will ever do any of the things that I did for others for me.
While evil people succeed. Narcissists can charm others into playing along with their world, people who do their jobs poorly will keep them.
Hard work, honesty, really any of those “positive” values seem to get you nowhere in life.
My definition of success is getting to sleep on a bed and not needin to drink to sleep
Your definition sounds very reasonable and I am really sorry it is not met. I would just invite you to reflect on the fact that many “evil” successful-looking people may have a nice bed, but still drink themselves to sleep.