Mine are more like, “How much longer do I need to keep doing this?” as I get up and get ready for the day.

I’ve been working at this for 6 years after going through rehab. I’ve been clean since, but decided to deal with the depression using the tools they gave me instead of using medication.

I don’t want to die, but even after changing careers and becoming “my own boss,” (you’re never your own boss) I still have no enthusiasm for living.

So I dunno if it’s normal, but you’re not alone.