My completely unrequested advice: try your best to stay or become the person that those you look up to (including your departed father) would be happy with you becoming. If you feel like you’re overly frustrated and about to have a breakdown, do whatever you can to bring yourself back.
If that means you need to step away and take a vacation into a yurt or cabin in the woods with a Nintendo DS or a friend: do it. Therapy also helps if your insurance can afford it, and if you find the right therapist (most allow you to have a call to assess good fit).
What if doing that for decades has resulted in nothing?
Unfortunately society feels like it’s headed to another historical event where the classes have to remind each other what the deal was, likely with violence.
My completely unrequested advice: try your best to stay or become the person that those you look up to (including your departed father) would be happy with you becoming. If you feel like you’re overly frustrated and about to have a breakdown, do whatever you can to bring yourself back.
If that means you need to step away and take a vacation into a yurt or cabin in the woods with a Nintendo DS or a friend: do it. Therapy also helps if your insurance can afford it, and if you find the right therapist (most allow you to have a call to assess good fit).
Hang in there.
Man do I really wish I had the money to take a vacation or even a staycation for my mental health…
What if doing that for decades has resulted in nothing?
Unfortunately society feels like it’s headed to another historical event where the classes have to remind each other what the deal was, likely with violence.